Standing in Front of the Refrigerator

Ever find yourself standing in front of the fridge, door opened, eyes scanning? Are you looking for that tasty and healthy lettuce, carrots, or the left-over pot roast or pickled mushrooms? If you are a Sugaraholic you stand there looking for something that will satisfy the sugar-carb cravings. All the purely good food is not what your brain is scanning the big box for, or honing in on if some nice pudding or fruit-salad happens to be there.

Ever find yourself wandering time and time again to the kitchen, scanning the cabinets and pantry, exploring the cupboards, checking those hiding spots just in case a stray package of cookies or candy is still hiding there? Fat chance! The kitchen trek could potentially turn up many delightfully good things to eat if hunger were really the problem, but it isn’t

In fact, for Sugaraholics, real hunger is likely unknown, or, if ever known, long forgotten. My experience was the longer I was a Sugaraholic the poorer my hunger sensor became. I could go all day and never feel hungry if I was busy, but once I did begin to eat it was not a pretty picture, especially if I was away from home. At least at home I might have cooked a decent meal, but if I were still late at work, or driving home and realized I hadn’t eaten all day, then it was a likely I might binge. I’d stop at the first convenience store or drugstore (increasingly a misnomer) for milk, a package of cookies, chips, or several things which would get eaten on the way home. If I didn’t need to get home a make a meal for my spouse, I was likely to hit one of the fast food chains for one of my predictable fixes.

You know all this, don’t you? You have been there those hundreds of times. You and I have eaten a very healthy meal, then had to have a treat—may have driven to get that “little” treat. We are fix-oriented when we keep eating food in a way that we know is unhealthy and is making us fat and miserable.

We know there are some people who can eat a couple cookies and go on their way, and for years we may convince ourselves we will do that, too, after this one last binge. We live in the world of tomorrow. Tomorrow I will start my diet; tomorrow I will not eat anything sweet except fruit; tomorrow I will exercise more. We have given up years of our lives in expectation of tomorrow magic.

Like the alcoholic who must accept that s/he can no longer drink any alcohol, we sugaraholics must give up all the sweets, carbohydrates, artificial sweeteners that keep us repeating these dead-end behaviors. (More on this tomorrow.)

I no longer stand in front of the open fridge for I know there is nothing there but good, wholesome food. If I’m hungry I get something to eat, but it is to feed the body, not the sugar-sweet addiction. However, now when I stand there I remember all those lost years of looking for the sweet, and glad to have it behind me. But only if I stay away from the sweets-carbs-artificial sweeteners.

Yours in health and happiness,
Sugarbaby

4 responses to “Standing in Front of the Refrigerator

  1. I actually found this more entertinanig than James Joyce.

  2. Thanks Kailin! As a one time literature major I actually read Joyce–waded through might be more honest.

  3. Bravo to you.. this post is dead on target, and so courageously honest. Thank you for writing about this, it helps me to know I’m not the only one.

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