We can become very skilled at lying to ourselves. Rationalization is a singular human trait. When we hit a bump in the road, fall off the wagon, let go into a binge, or otherwise undermine our best intentions to stay off sugars-refined starches-artificial sweeteners, or stick to a diet, we may initially decide to “excuse” our erring ways with something that soothes the upset. But as a psychologist (I’ve got to find the reference and insert here–) I read in an old Psychology Today article stated, people who finally overcome things like alcohol or sugar addictions have to be humble in order to move on. I don’t know why this magazine from 2010 surfaced in my house, but reading this article I experienced a moment of painful recognition.
Often I have felt overly sure of myself, even cocky about my Sugaraholics experience, feeling that I had at last solved my problem; then some weeks or months into the program an episode would upset me, and sure enough I would find all the excuses–the stresses and other things–that led me to stumble. I think now I am really not so sure of myself as I had thought, but maybe that knowledge will help in the long run.
The learning never ends. And thank goodness for that.
Yours in learning,
Nan aka Sugarbaby